Bikinis and Body Image – A True Story
Bikinis and Body Image – Smokin Mirrors – A True Story
My name is Kelly and I asked the Bikini Police if I could share my story.
I have worked out since I was 22, I am now 34 and have had two kids. For my whole life I felt I was fat. Every time I looked in a mirror, I saw this huge blimp, all the roles and bulges. I wore bikinis but would always wear a cover up and did my best to stay covered unless I was lying down tanning.
I love the beach, I love to travel and most of all I love my husband and he adores me.
We were on a trip to Rio with another couple Stephen and Keri, who have been friends of mine since high school. The guy’s were by the pool bar and we had gone back to our rooms to freshen up. At this point, I want to say that I have always thought Keri was beautiful, I always admired her because she looks amazing in a bikini.
After I was done in my room, I went over two Keri’s room, she was just changing into a different bikini. I saw this other bikini that was a purple string bikini with a really cute sash on it sitting on her bed. Keri said if you like it, why don’t you wear it? I replied OMG there is no way I would ever fit into that bikini. She laughed and replied your joking right. I am sure I looked at her with some sort of lost dismayed look, because she replied, “What the hell is wrong with you, try it on. I was terrified I would stretch it out of shape.
She insisted and said, you are smaller than me, and I just crumbled, I actually cried because I really felt there was no way that I would ever fit into one of her bikinis.
She asked me to stand beside her and look in the mirror, In my eyes I looked huge compared to her. Keri went over and picked up a piece of string and put it around her waist and marked the string, she then put it on my waist, and I was shocked to see that I was almost two inches smaller than her, Now my bust was slightly larger than hers but my hips were again slightly smaller. I was in complete dismay.
So she forced me to try on the bikini and it fit perfectly, yet when I looked in the mirror I still saw this huge girl.
I was in complete denial at this point, I put on my cover up and we went back out to the beach. Now Keri is 29, and when she tans, she wears a thong bikini. She typically wears the thong with a sarong until she gets to her lounger then lies in the sun wearing the thong.
Keri dared me to put on one of her thongs and wear it from our room to the beach where we were tanning. I of course almost got sick at the thought of exposing my body in a thong bikini.
Four days later and after a number of cocktails we were back in the room taking part in our usual afternoon break and she started to talk about the thong bikini again. She said she would wear one without a cover up if I did and walk straight out to the guys on the beach.
She would not let up and finally I agreed. I slid on this beautiful burgundy thong bikini, and she wore a black thong bikini. In any case she basically wrestled me out of my room and locked the door behind her so I was stuck in the hall. I was freaking out. Just as group of 6 people walk by and as they passed I overheard one of the girls stay that she loved the burgundy thong. I looked around for some 18 year old model wearing a burgundy thong bikini. But we were the only ones in the hallway.
After some more coaxing and I think maybe an arm-bar and a choke hold was applied, I was slinking my way out to the beach living my worst nightmare.
Within minutes, I felt things changing inside, People were looking and some were actually complimenting us. I noticed heads were turning men were watching us pass with glazed eyes. All of a sudden felt strong, empowered, confident and in complete control, it was the strangest feeling.
I walked over to my husband and his jaw dropped, at first he was mad, then he got a good look and was completely supportive and hugged me. He whispered in my ear how proud he was of me and that it took a great deal of courage to wear this bikini in public let alone in the privacy of my room where there were mirrors.
We then all strolled down the beach at the waters edge, wearing our thong bikinis, hand in hand with our husbands. Words cannot describe how I felt inside, In 34 years, I had never felt so confident and good about myself.
This day changed my life forever, I now own a thong bikini but only wear it when I am alone with my husband, I did not feel good about all of the attention I was receiving, But I will tell you this, I wear my bikinis with pride now, I no longer worry about cover ups, and I really enjoy myself. This day was a freeing day for me. All of my fears went out the window that day and every time I wear a bikini, I feel like a bird on its first flight.
My name is kelly and this is my story and I wanted to share it with you. My measurements are 37-28-38. I am a bigger girl and I am finally proud of myself.
I hope my story inspires other women to give up the smoking mirrors and simply enjoy what you have and be proud.
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